I'm amazed by how life's been pretty well for me these days... despite the fact that I just lost a person who's not only my bestfriend but the person whom I love very dearly.
One day around last week, I was so frustrated about this whole damn thing and I decided to go to Kinokuniya and bought a book. But before bringing "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" to the cashier, I walked through each aisle, picking up and reading every book's synopsis, wondering how exactly the content is and put it back in the shelf while listening to my favorite tunes, set on a high volume. Bookstores have always been my sanctuary despite the fact that I don't always have enough money to buy books :P
There's this part in "The Perks of Being a Wallflower" that stabs me right in the heart. It's the part where Charlie said,"I swear we were infinite." on the last sentence of part I. It stabs me because I thought me and him were infinite, too, but I forgot one thing: the only infinite thing in this world is change.
It's been very hard for me. It still is. I mean, leaving that comfy feeling behind and stepping out of the circle and 'restart' your whole mind to not get used to it anymore is terrifying. Really.
I think it's crazy how I could even think about leaving, especially since I know myself well. I'm not what you'd call an adventurer. I love being comfy, I love staying in my comfort zone no matter how painful it is.
I'm struggling to forget. The process is painful, and I don't know if I could ever pass this.
But anyways, I have my awesome friends backing me up from behind, so I guess I'll be ok. ;)
Another news, my college life is fun. Time sure flies. I'm on my 3rd semester now and I can't believe it. But what's so fun about being in college is you get to choose your classmates. You can have the same classmates for the rest of your college years if you want to. THAT, my friends, is the beauty of being a college kid. So high-school kiddos, go get yourselves in here because college is going to be much, much more fun than high-school!
But the downside of being a college kid is you can't choose your lecturer. Yeah I know, how come one thing so awesome still have downsides?
There's this one lecturer that pretty much a pain in the ass but hey, my other absurd lecturer from my 2nd semester is getting easier to understand these days, and some of my favorite lecturers from the 1st semester are teaching me again this semester, so I'm not really in the position to complain so much about that one particular lecturer :))
How's life been treating you, amigos? I hope it's treating you well.
Infinite hugs,
Azrina
Label: college life, Daily life
